Honesty, Sadness, An Outfit Fail And A Quick Face Of Saturday x

I'm sorry that these posts are a little later than I intended them to be but I spent most of Saturday night and yesterday in a stupid amount of pain, my muscles literally seized up, in a mass of cramps and spasms, the cause of the pain - believe it or not a blogger event. On Saturday I attended my first ever blogger event hosted by FABB Events at Tiger Tiger in Newcastle. I didn't do anything that people don't do everyday of the week yet I ended up in some serious pain. I hate my stupid body at times and my physio is going to have a field day on Wednesday trying to iron me out, but do you know what? it was worth it. I really think I should give my body a kick in the teeth more often and do things that I enjoy and suffer the consequences - life really is too short. I'll post more about the event itself later but I thought I'd do a quick outfit and face of the day post x

I was scared about the whole thing to be honest: when your completely lacking in self confidence and self belief hurling yourself into situations like events when you've never me a soul there is scary. I constantly feel as though people are judging me and critiquing me all the time, I know this isn't true but its how I feel, so what do you wear to meet up with fashion and beauty bloggers? well I'm afraid I stayed well within my comfort zone. I'm feeling super uncomfortable about my body at the moment the weight isn't coming off as quick as I would like ( my doctor said it would be hard and boy is it) and quite frankly I hate looking in the mirror at the moment. I picked a simple smart casual outfit, that above all was comfortable.

What I Wore 

Blue Jeggings - Asda

White Vest - La Redoute 

White Number Burn Out Top - Primark

Lightweight Black Blazer - Sienna Couture At New Look

Black Biker Boots - Studio Catalogue

Gold Acrylic Mirror Name Necklace - Punky Pins

Standing up and walking I was feeling OK glancing at my reflection in shop windows etc. I thought you aren't looking too bad Lou - I was wrong though, I've had a look at some of the pics from the event and quite frankly I could have cried sitting down the two layers of top does nothing for my stomach, and the white makes me look huge :( In fact I almost look pregnant (thanks for that Mummy Lou)- comfortable but all in all a fail and a real confidence killer - I guess there is a reason why so many clothes for fuller figured women are dark - white clothing, flash photography and a super curvy tummy does not a happy LouLou make :(  Everyone has been so nice about everything though so I can't thank you all enough for being so sweet and understanding - It only goes to show what fabulous people end up in the North East xx

From something I felt like utter turd about to something I was happy with - my make up - I was in a major hurry and I knew that being a slightly warmer day than we'd had lately nothing dramatic would last so I made the decision quite early to go for something neutral - I didn't have much time to photograph the look so you can see the lipstick here x and the eye look will be up in my palette of the month post later this week and yeah it is another fish face :)

What I Wore
GOSH - Velvet Touch Cream Primer

Avon Ideal Flawless Foundation - Ivory
Mixed With
Maybelline Dream Satin Liquid - 010 Ivory
Boots No7 Trio Conceale - Lightest 2 Shades Mixed
MAC Prep + Prime Transparent Finishing Powder
Benefit Sugarbomb - All Shade Swirled Together
 Maybelline The Colossal Mascara - Glam Black
Front Cover Satin Pressed Eyeshadows - Mocha Magic, Brown Cork, and Burnt Cork

Bourjois Rouge Edition Lipstick - 04 - Rose Tweed.

I know you can't see the look too well, It will be definitely something that I will wear again it was simple, and it looked really fresh, and natural, and shock of horrors I still had make up to take off when I got home - result! Pretty boring but effective - if you want to see a much more exciting eye look though check out this post from the lovely Aqeela who I was lucky enough to meet at the event - how amazing are her eyes?

I'm sorry that this post was a bit of a downer, if your not happy, your not happy though and you can't pretend to be something your not. Thankfully my negativity came after the event which was a great experience that I'm so pleased to have taken part in - my full post on the event will be up shortly, if I haven't scared you off already that it :) xx